The Perks of Life.

Probably will condense this for the sake of saving your guys’ dashboards, hah.

So…how have I changed? I’ve been dwelling on this the whole day (thanks 30 day challenge, you compelled me to make thought provoking observations of myself, haha) First physical appearance…well:

• I’ve grown out my hair for dance starting just about two years ago, it used to be a little above shoulder length like this:

Old pictures are old.

Now its about at my belly button like this:

My head-tilt pose, however, has not changed one bit -___-

• I’m more conscientious about how I dress. I used to just wake up, put on a little makeup, throw on anything and go to school. I looked like a 12-year-old, literally. Now I put more thought into what I wear each day and dress my age. Well, now people think I’m 18, so almost my age…

How I changed mentally:

• I used to be someone you can take advantage of. A pushover, it was hard to say ‘no’. I was just too nice to others for my own good and was taken for granted because I put others’ needs well before mine…this took a toll on me because my needs were never met and people I’d know would ask me more and more favors knowing that I’d probably do whatever they asked me to. Now I’m more of a person who takes care of myself and my own well-being before I move onto helping other people. In a nutshell, I was someone who loves helping others and still am, but it was just to a degree where I was affected in a negative way.
• I’m a really sensitive person, always have and probably always will be. But two years ago, I would get affected by just about anything others thought about me. I always felt judged and was very emotional at one point that I broke down. It wasn’t until about a year ago that I realized that those who judge me only touch the surface of who I am. They generally only see through their eyes and don’t try to see what I am on the inside. I realized that only God and myself knows who I truly am, inside and out.
• I was really lost as to what my future held for me at the beginning of college. I was undeclared, switched to Biology but wasn’t feeling being at CSULB for another like…7-8 years. Plus I didn’t know what I would really do with a Biology major. Last semester I had this random moment where I was like “I want to be able to help other other people but I don’t think I can be a MD or anything…”. But that day, I went with Stephen as he went to his doctor’s appointment and the doctor said he needed to stay active and eat healthier in order to stay healthy. So when we got back to his house, him and his family started this routine where they would run around the park across the street after dinner. Though this routine of theirs was temporary (it stopped after like four days of doing it, bahaha), it really sparked my interest in nutrition. So, when I went home..I flipped through the pages of the CSULB catalog and found out that there was a Nutrition & Dietetics major available..so I changed my Biology major to a Nutrition and Dietetics major. I took my first nutrition class this semester and I LOVE it. And someday, if/when I achieve my goal to be a Registered Dietitian, I really want to help the obesity epidemic that’s growing in the United States. So..I found a way where I can help other people while still keeping realistic goals in mind :)
• I’m a more confident person. Through various things, especially dance, I finally am starting to find who I am and why I’m beautiful as an individual. I used to be really negative about my appearance and my personality but I’ve really just grown into someone who now walks with confidence rather than the person that would always be hunch-backed like I was a couple years ago. I’m slowly finding out more about myself and am starting to embrace my flaws instead of responding negatively, and I guess that’s a good thing.