The Perks of Life.

These past few days I’ve just been walking around school like a zombie, just going through the motions and wanting this week to be over and done with. I don’t know how to feel, I’ve just been numb. It’s really just hard to believe that you’re gone…that I feel like my goodbye to you before you left to the Philippines was so insufficient. Like I had this mindset “I’ll see him again soon enough”. But…as soon as Jace texted us Saturday morning, I had a feeling something was up and quickly blocked it from my mind. I just kept thinking to myself “He’ll be okay” but my conscience was saying “Omigosh, he’s ninety-nine..”. And somehow, call it intuition, but I knew something had happened at around 7:00 pm Saturday night because I checked my phone at the exact time my mom and dad texted me “Your grandpa passed away”. Even then, it was hard to feel anything, I just burst into tears. I’ve never lost anyone really close to me until now. And now that you’re gone, I wish I could have gotten to see you alive one last time, grampa. Its hard imagining not being able to hear you whistle or walk around outside gardening. I’ve been trying to get through everything, but it’s hard to stay strong and appear as if nothing’s wrong. All I’ve wanted to do these past few days was to lock myself in my room and sleep the whole day. I miss you, but I know you’re up there in Heaven gardening and enjoying yourself. You’ve completed your temporary life on Earth…completing your life’s mission and evangelizing God’s word to everyone you know. Now you’re in eternity. I’m glad that you’ll get to celebrate your 100th birthday in Heaven and I know you’re smiling down on all of the family, I can feel it. I miss you grampa…and I love you with all my heart. Thank you for being an inspiration onto my life..you’ve sacrificed so much for the family so that we’d all have a better life. You are truly my hero. Til we meet again..